從來沒想過要傷害別人的我常常受到傷害 是天在訓練我嗎?是想讓我早點堅強自立嗎? 可是,爲什麽要在我開始勇敢的時候卻要拼命的給我增加恐懼? 爲什麽努力讓我堅強,卻要半途讓我失去所有的努力? 爲什麽要安排一個變態來嚇我,讓我的心有了一層陰影? 不知道我現在看到陌生男人就會害怕嗎? 爲什麽要倒塌我心裏的那道墻? 我知道爸爸媽媽真的很愛我,可是他們卻不明白我自己在這裡會受到很多他們想象不到的傷害...爸媽不能在身邊保護我就夠了 上天卻還安排一切讓我受盡壓力 被逼著去努力照顧自己... 好,可以鍛煉我,讓我受傷害,讓我從痛裏面學會自己站起來。可是有沒有想過每天都發生同樣的事情會讓我失去自信,變成一個自負的人? everyday I wake up telling myself to be tough, if I toughen up, everything will be fine... but it doesn't go that way, the more i try to be strong on the outside, the more pain i have to hold inside... I keep on makin myself believe that I am a happi person, and there's nothing that I can't go through...but the more I expect of myself, the more disappointed I am... 漸漸失去那個真正勇敢的自己 想不起那個真正快樂的我在哪裏 好想念那個自己 隨便別人在我背後說我什麽 我的責任是做好自己 我還是會繼續相信大家會有realize的那天 I am thankful for the ones that can see my true side I can get a lil violent, a lil straight forward, a lil stupid, a lil clumsy, but these are all parts of me…I would never ever want to hurt anione emotionally 表面上有點兇兇的 可是心裏面不是這樣的 保證從來沒有想過要傷害你們 原諒我的粗魯 kicking ur ass is better than backstabbing, rite? I sure know which one would hurt more |